From the Mind of a Pretty Boy

GO MOVE SLOWLY…….by Alek Polanko

One day while seated, I looked around me,
and started to think in hatred.
I remember the train and the absence of rain,
but I also remember tears streaming from my face.

I knew he was going,
by the taxi waiting for him.
I should have known how much he meant to me,
while the train moves slowly.

I was in the train station,
without being able to believe.
I had let my love go,
and he’s still alive inside of me.

Many times I think,
what I could have done differently.
In any reason he has to go,
I’m not hoping for his sudden return.

PAIN….by Alek Polanko
Reality twisted
I am a car with no driver
I am ruthless
Leave no survivor

Tearing at the fragments of my mind
I screamed as loud as I could
And yet you turned away
As I knew you would

Dare you look me in the eye?
Dare you see the torment inside
The raging river in which
I am only along for the ride

You turn away from me
Because I shoved in your face
What you didn’t want to see
Interrupted your sheltered place

Your kind is scared of me
Because I brought darkness into the light
I set ripples in your calm
Brought with me terror and fright

I go where the demons go
To fight them would be pointless
I can’t change my ways
Cant get out of this mess

I’m about to break
This pain is becoming too much for me
I need to move on
But I have nowhere to be

I have nowhere to call home
I see the fake smiles
True friends are far away
Separated by thousands of miles

There are different kinds of pressures
I’ve escaped from social and peer
but it’s my life’s/family pressure that’s got me
That’s the one I fear

If I let them down
I lose
But if I go their way
It’s a different kind of abuse

There’s nothing I can do
Only losers take their lives
So in the end I guess its true
Only the strong one survives

I only wish one thing
It’s not world peace
Or a perfect world
I just wish the pain would cease

Just stop this terror…
Make it go away…
Let me live like a young man should
Don’t let me miss another day..

Keep hurting those who actually care,but it’s your fault for not understanding, not being patient enough to let me explain! Well fuck it I don’t need you or anyone!
I told you that you couldn’t handle me.

Disguise…by Alek Polanko
There is a Beautiful mask
Laid on my face
Hiding the pain
Im trying to erase.
Smiling and Smiling
Without a frown
Tying up the Tears
And avoiding a Breakdown.

When I have this Mask on
I seem to be fine,
But underneath it is
This broken heart of mine.
I act like a have a Normal Life
But better yet you know…
This weakness deep inside of me
I’m trying not to show!

This Mask makes me a
Person I’m really not
It’s just another Face
That you bought.
So as I write this poem
I can guarantee
Your world is perfect
Compared to me.

Lying, crying, disobient
This is a game and
I’m just the cheat.
This mask can’t
Hold much longer
It’s far to old…..
Cheating and Lies
Have all been told.

I’m tired of hiding
My weakness behind a Mask
But either way
This pain will last.

The mask is worn out…..
Now for everyone to see
The little lost Depression
That was deep inside of Me.

DOMINO EFFECT…..by Alek Polanko

No one knows who started this,

To be honest it’s a tragedy it’s something that can be prevented.

There is so much statistics and no one wants to protects themselves

I look at the clock it’s 3:44 p.m. somewhere in the city

Someone goes home with a stranger thinking he’s going to get lucky, a little intoxicated..WHAM BAM THANK YOU SEXY!

Mr. Beautiful has an addiction to lust

And that’s how this starts, If only he had one on him!

It’s what I call the Domino Effect and as I watch each one go down… down… down…

I shake my head in disapproval.